That Saturday morning, three years ago should have been an ordinary day, there was no indication it would be any other. Then like a wild animal pouncing on its unsuspecting prey, death was upon us.
Over the past three years I have contemplated a lot on the dynamic of “expect the unexpected”, so why was i shocked last tuesday at going from 38 mile early morning bike ride to A&E after lunch with stomach pain and by early evening into the operating theatre? Was I really shocked?
I find myself yet again in the position of physically not able to function as I would like. I don’t think I could even get on my bike right now, never mind ride. These last weeks before 8th September and Mysterious? Should be the final “sprint”. I have so much to do on the marketing side, but I cannot walk very far, I cannot drive for 1-2 weeks and I am signed off from work for 3-6 weeks. (that’s all the official side, but I can not sit still, watch this space!)
“and then God spoke”….. So what did He say? I read how David refused to use Saul’s armour to fight Goliath, how Gideon let many soldiers go until he only had 300, how a little boy offered his lunch box to feed 5000……..”it’s not by might, not by power but by my Spirit says the LORD”.
So was I really shocked, well in reality of course I am. All of us jump when something unexpected surprises us, but after that initial shock, you just smile at the position you find yourself. I am at that place of total dependency on God, family and friends……it’s a good place to be. I also know that the spirit of God is awesome. God’s spirit is a little unconventional for me but what incredible results. So the marketing I wanted to do I cannot do in the same way, the weight I wanted to lose to achieve the goals my friends are sponsoring me for to help pay for Mysterious? I will not achieve. I have waxed eloquently on this blog the last 3 years about God, can I trust the God I write about to help achieve the vision for Mysterious?
And so this morning I’m in the chair, listening to the song that says ” my life is in you LORD, my strength is in you LORD, my hope is in you LORD” and….. yet again i say to God “I surrender”