The end must come before the beginning. Most of us do not like the between stage, the no-mans land. We begin change with an ending. This week is historic in the Knight family, Laura finishes her A level’s which in turn means, school is over. Our little girl, not so little any more being the last one to pass through school. It’s a stage I want to mark with Kathy and give thanks for all the school memories, some good and some bad. Times you wish you could take the place of your child, times you were so proud to see them on stage, on a running track, in a play. We celebrate “they are through it”! To this day we are so grateful that Akila went through main line school with her hearing impairment. She is such a normal kid with similar abilities to any other, why an earth they used to put them in special needs schools I don’t know. The school to this day are proud of both her and their achievement that she went on to complete a social degree at University, the first “Special Needs” person to accomplish that at the school. Mike was like his dad at school. School and Mike were never a good marriage!
Laura does not know what she wants to do in 1 years time. She loves french, but with Uni fees today, should she get such a big debt just to lean a language? Why not live in France for a year, a lot cheaper option. And so we enter a time of Ending……go into the no mans land to cross into a new beginning. We celebrate when we can because we also know there are anxious times ahead on the human level.
In the no-mans land, ‘Lifestyle faith’ is what we practice as we cope with the human insecurities.
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too loftyfor me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand —
when I awake,I am still with you.
19 If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!
20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.