April 12, 2012
I listened to a wise African man, Phineas Dube some years ago tell how these days he likes to sit in his native Zimbabwe and watch the animals. Phineas is a man with Phd’s, worked for the BBC in the UK and in human terms been very successful in life. I never forget how he said “He has never seen a Lion and an Elephant wanting to have sex together, so why do two men want to have sex!”, or “How come a dog and bitch can lie together in the sun without having to have sex all the time, but young people today cannot seem to keep their hands off each other”!
We live in a very fast pace life that really does not take the time to watch and listen. Its not just seeing, but observing. The process of analysing or contemplating on what I am seeing. As a Jesus follower I like to look and see what God is doing. We are moving forward with “The Event” on September 8th where we want to tell Mike’s story, others stories and His Story. As we as a family discuss this amongst ourselves and with others, there seems to be some key elements coming together. Its as I step back and watch as well as listen that I start to see what I believe God is doing. My Bible tells me I only see in part so that’s a little frustrating!
April 9, 2012
When Job had lost all his possessions and his family He said “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked I shall return there. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away. Blessed be the name of the LORD.” Job 1v21
Hannah had been unable to have children for many years and would cry out to God to give her a child. In the temple when she is pleading with God, Eli says in the end to her “Go in peace; and may the God of Israel grant your petition that you have asked of Him.” and Hannah falls pregnant with Samuel. At a young age she gives this treasures child back to God by serving in the temple with Eli. God gave to Hannah and she gave back.
Both Job and Hannah had a choice to make and I believe we do and its one of the heart, its not whether a loved one is taken or a loved one is given, but do we give that child to God in our hearts whether that child is alive or dies? Do we recognise that we did not give life, He did. Can I trust God to give to Him a child that is rebellious against God? Are the things we hold dear ours to grip onto or do we release them for God to do what He wants with them? May be nothing happens on the physical, but have I in my heart released to Him before I may have to?
And then I ask the other question, does He take or is the taking just a part of this sinful world I live in? Why when my boy dies at 18 do I say “He took Him” (which I believe he did!), but why when my 93 year old grandmother died, I said “what a wonderful long life”, it was the natural order.
I dont know, but I do know I need to give to Him in my heart all those things I hold close, even though they may not be taken or given on a physical level.
April 8, 2012
As tradition, we rose early for a Sunday sunrise service at the cemetery. We like to go and visit the place where we buried Mike, which is only 50 yards from where Christians gather for this service. I find less and less comfort in visiting Mike. As the emotion lessens and logic replaces, like the ladies went to visit Jesus at the tomb and found the angel that said, “He is not here, He is risen”. We don’t need to visit the place where we buried Mike, we carry him in our hearts and memories. We think and talk about him often and all the good times we had. I started to ponder on whether I think of all the good times and memories I have had with God! Our friends Todd, Karen and Austin have been around for the past week and we have created some awesome memories visiting places of beauty, castles and pubs in the south-west of Scotland. Jesus is not dead, He is alive, He is present, I experience a vibrant and real relationship with Him. The dynamic of living in the present can be a tension of not looking back. It’s very important for me to look back and remember all the good times I have had with God, those awesome spiritual memories. Do I put as much effort into creating those I do with friends in the Sth of Scotland!