Yesterday I came out of the supermarket and just sat in the car. I felt a cloud of depression over me and realized it has been there for some days. Whether its the time of year, with the cold and dark nights, missing Mike more than I understand or whatever, I do not know. The zeal and passion for life is not there. My heart and mind are void.
Early this year I met an Englishman in India who had struggled for many years with depression. Today he is functioning well and able to venture out, but very aware that he continues to struggle with this illness. To help him, he produced a little card with the following on it:
My Daily Confession
My cup of life overflows and because of your great Love for me I am blessed in the morning. I am blessed in the evening and I am blessed at night. Lord you have plans for me until I walk through the final valley you will keep me able to serve, counsel me, guide my steps and make my way flourish like a well watered tree. You will daily feed me on good things from your Word and make provisions for my needs.
I will be a witness to the goodness of the Lord and I will tell others of my salvation by faith in Christ alone not having my own righteousness. Out of this relationship He creates a life of good works of Grace to be done through me. I am Father God’s child, born anew of the Holy Spirit and part of the Kingdom of Christ; thought I may fall I will not be cast down. His refreshing tender mercies are renewed to me every morning.
My new creation life that comes from above will bear the fruit of the Holy Spirit and I will do well in my anointed and appointed gifting. With my old life hidden in Christ I have strength and peace. This makes me more than a conqueror over Satan, sin, self and death and because I walk in the light, love and life of Christ nothing touches me that has not passed through Father God’s hands.
I keep this card in my wallet and so sat in the car and read it. There are realities greater than my feelings and I speak those truths into my life. Its not a magic mantra that I end up happy at the end of reading out loud, but it does focus my emotion and help me recognise what God has done for me, who I am in Christ and what I am so greatful for. It helps to keep me going until I need to read it again!