We remember trips where either we as a child or our children ask our parents, “are we there yet?”. Its not the change we have trouble accepting, that happens fast, its the transition, the middle. We are not where we were, we have not arrived where we want to be. Its the “no-mans-land” we struggle to navigate, and that is more often than not the emotional response to change. I notice that what is a 3 part process is some times looked at subconsciously as a two part; seed, time, harvest. When we hear that our brains construct the words to seed-time & harvest. We do not like the middle process, we just want to plant the seed and immediately harvest.
During the course of transitioning the loss of Mike, I have been aware and purposeful with regards to time. Whilst my own pragmatic nature and life around me wants to move fast, I have forced myself to go slow, reflect and just let the beauty of time do its work. That has not been easy as there is a tendency to not trust time. If I do not see the seed growing I think that I have to help the process, I think I have to help nature! At times, due to the virgin territory of experience and my own perception of time with relation to stages of grief, I was frustrated that my “healing” was not faster, that I had not transitioned a particular stage. What frustrated me even more was to discover that my grief process was not linear but iterative. I thought I was heading backwards!
So we do not sit on our bums! God by His spirit gives us a revelation, a vision, a desire for a future state. We co-operate with Him, talk to others, think it through and sow the seed. There is so much work involved in sowing the seed, deciding on the best environment for the seed to grow, understanding the dynamics of that particular seed, the ground to prepare and that can be a colossal task, or may be its a building to construct to protect the seed from the natural elements and so on. The planting of the seed is actually a small part of the whole.
If I am honest, its not the time between sowing and reaping that I have the greatest problem with, its the work needed to create the perfect environment for the seed to have optimal conditions to grow. I just want to get on and sow!
In the “walk of faith”, can I accept the unseen part of God by His Spirit preparing the ground for the seed to be planted? So after He gives a revelation, can I co-operate in prayer as He does His work in ground preparation, or do I just clumsily bowl in, sow the seed and then wonder why I did not get the desired results or maximum harvest we could have had! In business we call that initial stage, planning. Many times due to insufficient planning the process and end results are far from satisfactory.