I’m moving on, not sure I want to say Bye. There was comfort in that place. I dont have all the emotion to get that daily fix. The Kaleidoscope of vivid multi thoughts has gone blank. The clarity that came from all that adrenaline pumping has stopped. I find I am allowing other topics to rent space in my mind. Some are the very topics I dont want to discuss. I have moved on. They have nothing to do with Mike or issues surrounding his death. Its almost like I have been in space and I am in the re-entry stage and the laws of the earths enviroment are now in effect. So am I the same? Have I been through all this only to come out the other end a person who had a family of 5 and now its 4? I would hope that is not the limit. And there lies the problem, EGO. Why is it that when we have nothing to think about we normally find ourselves thinking about ourselves! Paul says
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things
Logos in Beagle Canal.
Well praise God, so far none of my family are ship wrecked though this experience. We dont take that for granted and continue to live at the foot of the cross. There were days Kathy and I thought we would decend into darkness and not come out. So why do I not want to say bye and move on! Wow the complexity of the human mind.